Its been a while since I last created a blog entry…… so many things have passed….
First of all, Im really really really pissed off right now!!!
Reason why I only take 12 units per term:
Theres a reason why during my stay in college ever since I shifted, I never took more than 12 units worth of subjects every term, its so very rare that I took more than that. If ever the most I took was 15 units…. want to know why? Its because….. in all of my subjects that I take per term I usually end up doing if not most of the things, im doing EVERYTHING! Its so frustrating and saddening…. I do majority if not everything in the whole subject including the paperwork, the projects and the program and when Im doing everything and I make mistakes the entire group suffers for it….. in the end some of my members end up nearly failing the subject if they dont fail then we all pass, but the bad part is since I did everything they won’t have any knowledge about the subject so in the future…. they wont be able to do anything specially programming since they didnt learn from the previous subject…..
Its a chain…. at least now things are improving, im not doing everything. At least my current group mates are helping me with my work….. Its actually fun for me to do everything as long as I am happy and entertained by my group which are usually my friends. Although there was a time when I was doing the entire subject and I wasn’t happy with my group. My group mates were usually if not always missing and then the only members that showed up keep on leaving me for their friends and usually they just return to check up on what I did.
At least now im happy with my group mates and almost most of the time we are just laughing and doing strange things. I find my current group mates to be entertaining because… well…. I don’t know…. its just that they are fun to be with…. and we are 90% of the time happy in all of our subjects together even if we all are failing our quizzes and ” sinasabaw kami parati “.
Reason why now Im better than before:
Another thing is that I think I have changed for the better, before I used to get angry and depressed easily over small things, but now I dont. I think its because I pray and read the Bible, Thanks to FORMDEV hahahah 
and the Bible studies and the other Facilitators and Doc, Im usually at peace with myself…. Im happier now than before and Im content…. even though there are times that a group of people irritate me. Im still at peace…. Im actually happy because I got together and up until now I still stay in touch with my blockmates hahah before I was shy and I never got to know my blockmates. Now i regularly see them and I even talk with them, although many of my blockmates are gone…. I still manage to get in touch with them even if they are studying in a different college.
Im still pretty much pissed but after remembering my blockmates and my friends, these thoughts pretty much disappear….. although there a few things that really set me off, these are only a few and pretty much specific. If you hang around me most of the time you’ll know what these are…
Reason why I was super happy:
There was a time that I was sooo happy that I felt like I could fly and I could do anything
It was because a friend of mine was excited and was probably happy because of the flowers I sent to her A friend of mine helped me pick the flowers for her plus some of my friends from speedbytes also helped me make the bottled message for her The day was full of helping weeeee hahaha Aside from that my blockmates said that the brownies that I made were delicious, this really made me happy hahahah maybe someday I could be a baker!
I was also happy that week because I got to watch Green Idol, as usual my favorite was none other than…. sir Marcos!!! He was really really funny and just watching him sing and dance made my day! Followed by the Engg or engineering profs! they were really funny! I remembered last year when I watched Green Idol the Engg profs were hillarious! hahahah although after that things were a little bit strange since the ignition party at DLSU was a bit boring….. didnt do much except eat eat eat and talk with friends…. but still Green Idol made my day! weee
Reason why Im angry:
I dont understand it…. I never understand how a friend can leave another friend….. Ang dami beses ako nakakakita ng mga tao na iniiwan nila kaibigan nila for trivial things…. Usually di naman big deal un ganun para sa ibang tao…. pero para sa akin big deal un! Kahit ano mangyayari never ako mangiiwan ng kaibigan…. so strange majority ng people na nkilala ko, parang temporary lang ang friendship, once nkuha nila kailangan nila iiwan ka na nila o pag may kailangan sila sa ibang tao lilipat sila sa tao na yun! asar! Meron naman ibang tao iniiwan ka para sa achievements and stuff…. Lam ko important achievements and studies pero too much of that is bad….. anu din point ng achievements at mtataas na grades kung wala ka kaibigan at hindi ka masaya? Madalas para ma achieve mo yun mghihirap at mgdudusa ka tpos stress ng todo tpos in the end mkukuha mo nga pero masaya ka ba? Physical Achievement lng yan!!! parang reward lng yan na biscuit sa huli!! Mas prefer ko Intrinsic rewards, kasiyahan at kaibigan….. ok na sa akin work enough para pumasa and exert enough effort to do something and in the process have fun with my friends para masaya and in the end masaya kyo lahat pati mga kaibigan mo…. Mas gusto ko pa magtutor ng kaibigan ko sa studies at other stuff kaysa sa sumali sa organization tapos gumawa ng isang project na dami recognition…. Ayaw ko ng tao na nangiiwan ng kaibigan…. masaya nga ako sa barkada ko e kahit hiwahiwalay na kme, iba iba college na kme at yun iba ibang parte pa nga ng bansa e…. pero masaya kc khet hiwahiwalay kme…. ngkikita at nguusap usap at ngsasama pa kme
kahit sa college lng kme ngkakilala tpos nhiwalay kme, pag need nila help ppuntahan ko agad sila…. may times nga di ako pumasok ng class para samahan lng sila e…. at may times ganun dn sila sa akin…. although naiintindihan ko kelangan mgaral para pumasa…. ako din nagaaral e…. pero di naman un sobra sobra na parang nawalan ka na ng buhay sa kakaaral at gawa lng moderation in everything, wag un sobra sobra para masaya
Always remember, You only live once, make the most out of your life! Enjoy it!
( taken from my multiply weeee transfer transfer!! )
